Today I debut my space on the internet. If you have ever visited this page before and decided to stay a little while, thank you.
I have decided to tell you all a secret. When I grow up – or when I die – I’d like to have an entry in the encyclopedia; a tiny little paragraph, phrase, or half sentence. I would like to appear, to exist. I don’t know what encyclopedias will be like. They’ll probably be ecological and won’t use paper anymore. They’ll be online or in the cloud. Maybe humans in the future will need to buy a ticket to travel back in time and discover what happened back then. It would be something like Futuroscope, but Back-in-Timescope.
And even though it was tough to find me, I would like to have a small little room, where it says I existed and was lucky enough to make films. I’m writing this down so when this future encyclopedia is published, the human beings of the future will know I was happy. I would also be happy if they saw my films (I hope there’s more than one). Naturally these films would be free.
Why am I thinking about this? Because it is very difficult for film women to appear in encyclopedias. The editors and writers of these valuable sources of information often forget the names of great directors and it is not by chance, among whom are the great Cecilia Bartolomé and Mirentxu Loyarte.
I’ll probably never be as talented as they were, but still, I demand my spot or phrase, “Lara lived and made movies.” Because if a granddaughter of my granddaughter ever had an interest in the world of cinema, I would like her to know that her great-great-grandmother had fallen in love with cinema and it was worth it.
The invisibility of women’s work in something as beautiful as cinema becomes a dangerous and terrible weapon that kills our careers and makes us disappear. I do not want to be any less than any man who has fallen in love with cinema and has been lucky enough to make films. If they have their place, I want mine. I am putting it down here in writing, so no one messes up and forgets me or any of my colleagues, because we are here and we have no intention of leaving. Half of the encyclopedia is ours.
